this month of May has DEF been a woozy.

how times have changed with people i surround myself with

and what i’m currently in pursuit of.

everything seems to be linear to how i think..

just random spurts of fragmented thoughts

all bundled with the intentions of just living

living hoping it would be close to the feeling of being wholly satisfied.

but the feeling is only fleeting because reality sets in & life is full of bitches. 

sometimes I felt sad and disappointed with some of the outcomes of failed friendships and exhausted with the monotonous routine of working and going to school, but May brought some good feelings too.

meeting new people, figuring myself out after a 3 year relationship, and just waking up every day feeling blessed that i still have all my mechanical skills and a roof on top of my head.

May is the teaser month, because June is right after, and summer is amidst. FUCK YEAH. Personally, it not only marks as the end of my 4th year here in gay UCR, but the end of a long, tiring but loving and special chapter of my life. 

living life with no remorse or fear

just with the jitters of pure gumption

to make my life a little bit better & a little bit happier.

I want to get out of this funk.

Don’t wear my heart on my sleeve.

Know that honesty is really easy if you let it be.

What I wish for is to learn and experience more about this world and myself.

I forgive so easily, it kind of makes me angry.

Want to find people who makes living exciting and fun while maintaining friendships with those who make me feel like we can conquer the world.

 !!!! 

I want to grow away from all the petty little world we exist in. I want to leave it all behind, all the petty little thoughts about unimportant little things, things that’ll be forgotten a hundred years from now anyway. There’s a level somewhere where everything is solid and important. I’m going to try to reach up there and find a place I know is pretty close to perfect, a place where this whole messy world should be, could be, if it’d just take the time to learn.

- James Dean

FCCK REALLLY?

This is why I’m so infatuated with James Dean. Behind that beautiful face comes a curious brain and a tender heart. Really blows my mind why he was taken away so early. More boys need to be like him to turn into an interesting fckn sexyy individual. 

M&M doughnuts. Surprise breakfast from my Baby. SHO SWEET. (Taken with picplz.)

THIS SUNDAY! THIS SUNDAAAAAY! 

mothernaturenetwork:

Surprise! Your Starbucks strawberry smoothie has bugs in it
Crushed up bugs are used to add pink color to some of Starbucks products.

OH YAAAAH ;]